Things are lookin' up!
Mood:  lucky
My Song
OK, today is a little better, and last night was to both extemes of incredibly horrid and incredibly awesome. Caleb came and picked me up and we were going to go out to eat, but on the way I mentioned how Israel (my ex) had called me and told me that he heard that Caleb was going to kick his ass. Of course this wasn't true and I told Israel that. And Caelb, being the incredibly protective and jealous boyfriend he is got really mad at me but mostly upset. I felt horrible and we talked with my mom about it and worked things out. We ended up going out to a chinese restaurant and going to Pier 1, my fav. store! Turns out its his mom's favorite too.....how...nice...!?!?! But anyways we came home and were looking at this website about Polycystic Ovary Syndrome which is a thing a might have and I am super stressed about, seeing as I might not be able to have kids if I have it and I have like 90% of the symptoms. Anyways the night totally ended well! Not in THAT way, but we just talked and it was awesome. I love it when we have those times where we are so in tune to each other and understand just what we have together. I love that boy. I can honestly say that I would not rather be anywhere else in this world than with him. Ever.
As far is things go with she who shall not be named, who we will call Voldemort from now on (Caleb's mom). I think that I am going to go have a talk with her. I am probably just going to tell her that maybe when I was really pissed I said something to that effect (which I didn't) just to give her a sense of "OH, I win, I win, I win!". I know me and Caleb will end up married someday and I will have to put up with her so, I guess I might as well kiss her butt. Have you heard of Everybody Loves Raymond? Yeah, Voldemort is like Ray's mom!

Why is it all so complicated??
Mood:  on fire
My Song
OK, I am really pissed. I have been best friends with Anna ever since the beginning of this year, why is she stabbing me in the back. I tell her everything. I assume confidentiality, but I shouldn't. I told her how I felt about how Beth treats Caleb and it blew up in my face. I thought I had an awesome friend. I guess you never really know a person. After all I have been through with my other two best friends stabbing me in the back, I thought I might catch a break, but no such luck for me! I told Anna that I felt like Beth chose favorites in her kids...aka Gabbee over Caleb. My reason for saying this was that when me and Caleb were first together and Steve (his older bro) still lived at home, they had a bedroom, granted they slept on couches, but it was a bedroom. It was in the upstairs which is heated and comfortable. Well Steve moved out. They had been keeping the computer in the basement (which is colder than a witches...yeah!), but they decided that since Dennis, Caleb's dad, needed an office, that Caleb & Steve's old room would become the office and Caleb could sleep in this cold, musty, unfinished, cement floored basement, while Gabbee had a nice decorated to a *T* room in the nice heated upstairs. All because they needed an office!!! Grr!! Makes me living...as Caleb would say! (aka Livid) But anyways, anyone who knows me know I love Caleb with a passion. He is my one and only and I seriously plan on us getting married someday, as does he. He agrees with me about his mom, not just b-cuz I am his girlfriend, but because most people that know Beth know she's kinda well, not the nicest person in the world. Did I mention she's a Study Hall monitor at my school and she talks about me behind my back to my fellow classmates. I just want to scream! On top of all of this, I have been sick and in pain, ovarian cysts, not too fun! And the "cath" wasn't much fun either. Well lets hope things look up, I am outie!